This might (or not) be a lengthy post as it's 4am & I am severely jet lagged & I cant sleep & I just kdshjfmgbksdjhfbjhdf
I always find myself running back here to write about all the unfortunate events I happen to stumble upon. I dont usually plan ahead and tell myself 'Alex u hav to write in ur blog today', I do it on impulse, which explains why my posts are either irrelevant or mawkish. & my grammar/spelling appalling ... but who gives, right?
ANYWAY
(Disclaimer I am going to start ranting here so press the red button on the top left of this window if you want to, i wont mind)
BUT YAH ANYWAY
I honestly just dont know what to do anymore. I;m not hurting (thank God), i'm not sad (Thank god, yet again) but I just cant help wondering what if. What if I never said anything, what if we actually tried just a little harder, what if i was a little nicer.
No but I hate you so much I do,I swear if i could go right up to u and slap you i bloody would but in the end I always find myself talking to u even though I try so hard not to
Its like I hate u,but theres this thing that keeps me from hating u altogether
Like I get so annoyed but then i still reply
BUT I RELI WANT TO SLAP U, but I jdfukjhdsfh idk man idk
What is this Lex what r u doing
Someone please help me get my shit together
