Ayy

Quite honestly I find writing (or typing really) rather therapeutic
I should do this more often (yet another new year's resolution I will fail to check of my list u wait & see la)

U know when people say they are buried under so many emotions they feel like they're suffocating & u just wanna be like aduh stop complaining k bro just eat
I feel like i'm buried under so many emotions I can't breathe

I don't think I'm ready to be burdened with the Sem 2 workload although oddly enough I'm looking forward (I might even feel a tinge of excitement) to be back to the grind in about 3 days. I feel like the immense load of medically related diagrams/ info I will have to cram into the jelly in my skull in 4 months along with the many co-curicular activities I always find myself appearing at will require so much of my time that I will have none left, to think about my stupid feelings

Also, 8am lectures will be the death of me
Just so we're clear
I do not enjoy 8am lectures

Sometimes I think you care
But other times right I really just wanna slap u & throw u off a cliff
& other times I just wanna keep u in my pocket
cis then you'll be close  & i'll be protected
(& I will know when u try & cheat)

But I don't really have the rights to feel any of this do I
Because we're not really together anymore
Or were we ever
Or are we still

aduh.

HI

Honestly who reads this crap anyway, even I can't bear to read the words I managed to string into cringe worthy sentences all those years (or months la aiyo who am I kidding) ago

I'm probably just going to use this blog as an outlet to vent
Although I am too lazy to privatise it because well
1. Idk how
2. I'm too lazy to find out how
3. & again (nobody reads this anyway no honestly i just checked my stats ZILTCH bro)

I foresee very emotional posts on how much I think my life sucks or sad/angry adjectives sprawled over the (soon to be) many pages of this blog

In fact I think i'm gonna begin my first post now lol