quick update

..ok fine not so quick.

before you comment on my lack of blog updates, hehe, I HAVE BEEN BUSY, PUH LEASE. *puts on a serious face*

No but honestly i have been really busy. I went to madrid it was amazing. The spanish are such nice people and the boys asdfghjklasdfghjklsdfghjkl Also, i've been studying my big butt off, i really have. Exams begin on saturday & we havent had much time to actually sit and study because of the mayor's concert and the auditions and all the activities & my parents came last friday.

AND. we have ESB on friday, thats 2 days away. & i am no where near ready, k fine that was i lie. i'm sorta ready but still I'm so nervous i cant even.

*to the people who actually take the time to read this nonsense of a blog haha & dont know what ESB is, its a program. An exam, really. When students have to give speeches, recite shakespeare, and all that jazz. Anywhoos, it's a big deal and its hard because we have to memorize everything & the examiners will ask us questions based on whatever we say*

picture time!

^the above is what i look like as of now, ugly i know but idgaf cus i'm studying. ...or was

muah!

lexix

Infatuation

I vow not to swear on this blog as (hi mum & dad) some people who will be more than happy too skin me alive, will do just that if i so much so as type half a swear word.

Anyways, back to my life update. I wouldnt say i have an interesting life, but i guess i keep myself entertained, be it with one tree hill or talking behind people's backs (ha, i kid i kid). or BOOKS, lets not forget the most important hehe

but thats not the point

THE POINT IS THIS

I have been doing alot of this lately^

yes, lip biting. NO not to look hot and sexy or whatever it is you think i lip bite for. BUT because, i am stressed. I bite my lips when i'm stressed, i bite the inner parts mostly. WHICH IS WHY i have ulcers now. soososoosos many ulcers. they have come back to haunt me yet..again :( sad life i'm living here ok & they hurt, and they're so itchy. I cant be scratching my lips, so to ease the itchiness i bite even more. NEVER ENDING PROCESS

which brings me to the real point of my post ( have been ranting i know, soz i talk alot)

I am stressed because

1. I have GCSEs in 5 months & if i dont get an A* for all my 9 papers i would first shit my pants, then jump. END OF ALEXANDRA THAM'S MEDICAL CAREER
2. I have to figure out a way to earn Mrs Denham's trust, not forgetting Mr Hawkins and the entire staff body of CONCORD COLLEGE. ahhhhh, stupid decisions, i dont know why i cant stop making them
3. I need to lose weight. I AM SO FAT
4. I might like you. idk i dont need distractions right now. but its so hard. cus.ur.so.asdfghjkl! BUT i cant, OR CAN I

in distressssss

xxlexi

OH GUESS WHOOOOS BAAAAACKKK

um,

yeh

i .. forgot about the 30 day challenge heh heh heh heh

I promise i'll start soon though. lul i wonder if anyone reads this thing anyway

k its 12.13am, I cant sleep & i'm bored SOOOOOO PITCHAAA SPAMMMM

^that i took just now, in detention

^that, i took yesterday before the discoooo & no, we did NOT live young wild and fr33

^this one was over christmas break. a month ago?

^& ahha this one too!

^grandparent's 50th wedding anniversaryy hella long time 50 yeaars is biishess

at sacred heart

xxx lexi

30 DAY CHALLENGE

i stole this hahaha from bells or max or heidi i cant even remember anymore,

i thought it was cool, so imma be doing this.

fingers-crossed i'll actually finish it heh

x

finally

after a year and God knows how many days, i can finally reply to this message that was sent to me October last year

Dear Anon,

You would probably never read this but it is very important to me that i say thank you. Yes, you sent me that message eons ago, yes, i was tempted to reply to it to say that you were a whole load of crap, yes, i didn't believe you.

But now, after months and months of i miss yous, what ifs, if onlys, do i realize that time really does heal wounds. I dont mean to be sensitive and 'mushy' but i was hurt, i was so crazy honestly. Pretty much beyond repair, and i didnt think that things would ever get better. 'That this was rain and sunshine would never come.' But it did, and it has and i am proud to say that I am over it.

and that you were right!

you deserve a pat on the back.

so if it was you, go ahead give yourself a pat on the back :)

leo's night

tasha, belle, me, wendy

so i just got back from leo's night. we performed some hip hop thing. the front part wasnt all that bad really, but toward the end we all had brain spasms & it got really messed up. but overall it was pretty AWESOMMEEEE, taking into consideration the fact that be barely had time to finish the dance. We did out best! GO RED STEPPERS!!

All the other performers were awesome too! It was an enjoyable night & i had fun tbh.

i'm tired now night guise! :) x

lexi the fattie

so lately i've been struggling a little with being a fattie.

1. I EAT 24HOURS a day.

2. I exercise for at least 1HOUR each day.

but you see, after burning like a zillion (okay fine maybe not a zillion) calories jumping around, lifting weights & sweating like a (for lack of a better word) pig, I EAT.

& EAT

& EAT.

oh and... EAT

this is why i am still FAT. or as i like to say, AM STILL A FATTIE.

which now brings you to the depressing part of this post, I HATE BEING A FATTIE. i am so fat. 'no lex, you are not fat' 'serious alex, not fat' LIES! LIES! LIES!

my self esteem has hit an extreme low.

thank you skinny people.. really...