OH GUESS WHOOOOS BAAAAACKKK

um,

yeh

i .. forgot about the 30 day challenge heh heh heh heh

I promise i'll start soon though. lul i wonder if anyone reads this thing anyway

k its 12.13am, I cant sleep & i'm bored SOOOOOO PITCHAAA SPAMMMM

^that i took just now, in detention

^that, i took yesterday before the discoooo & no, we did NOT live young wild and fr33

^this one was over christmas break. a month ago?

^& ahha this one too!

^grandparent's 50th wedding anniversaryy hella long time 50 yeaars is biishess

at sacred heart

xxx lexi

30 DAY CHALLENGE

i stole this hahaha from bells or max or heidi i cant even remember anymore,

i thought it was cool, so imma be doing this.

fingers-crossed i'll actually finish it heh

x

finally

after a year and God knows how many days, i can finally reply to this message that was sent to me October last year

Dear Anon,

You would probably never read this but it is very important to me that i say thank you. Yes, you sent me that message eons ago, yes, i was tempted to reply to it to say that you were a whole load of crap, yes, i didn't believe you.

But now, after months and months of i miss yous, what ifs, if onlys, do i realize that time really does heal wounds. I dont mean to be sensitive and 'mushy' but i was hurt, i was so crazy honestly. Pretty much beyond repair, and i didnt think that things would ever get better. 'That this was rain and sunshine would never come.' But it did, and it has and i am proud to say that I am over it.

and that you were right!

you deserve a pat on the back.

so if it was you, go ahead give yourself a pat on the back :)

leo's night

tasha, belle, me, wendy

so i just got back from leo's night. we performed some hip hop thing. the front part wasnt all that bad really, but toward the end we all had brain spasms & it got really messed up. but overall it was pretty AWESOMMEEEE, taking into consideration the fact that be barely had time to finish the dance. We did out best! GO RED STEPPERS!!

All the other performers were awesome too! It was an enjoyable night & i had fun tbh.

i'm tired now night guise! :) x

lexi the fattie

so lately i've been struggling a little with being a fattie.

1. I EAT 24HOURS a day.

2. I exercise for at least 1HOUR each day.

but you see, after burning like a zillion (okay fine maybe not a zillion) calories jumping around, lifting weights & sweating like a (for lack of a better word) pig, I EAT.

& EAT

& EAT.

oh and... EAT

this is why i am still FAT. or as i like to say, AM STILL A FATTIE.

which now brings you to the depressing part of this post, I HATE BEING A FATTIE. i am so fat. 'no lex, you are not fat' 'serious alex, not fat' LIES! LIES! LIES!

my self esteem has hit an extreme low.

thank you skinny people.. really...

youth

i'm 15. pretty young really, but sometimes i do things that i shouldn't do. that people my age shouldnt be doing. i honestly should try and act my age.

August 15 2011

ahhahah i just read all my old posts. i was so caught up in old memories & was so damn heartbroken i couldnt even think straight.

WELL HERE I AM.

not as unhappy as before, but not as happy as i was before he happened.

.. BUT dont get me wrong, I AM CONTENT.

I AM HAPPY.

& all that 'time heals everything' shit. reaaally isnt shit. yes, time was all it took. time for me to realize that all things happen for a reason, time for me to step back and be thankful for all he taught me, time for me to realize that there are better things for me out there.

be it education or love.

:)