Ayy

Quite honestly I find writing (or typing really) rather therapeutic
I should do this more often (yet another new year's resolution I will fail to check of my list u wait & see la)

U know when people say they are buried under so many emotions they feel like they're suffocating & u just wanna be like aduh stop complaining k bro just eat
I feel like i'm buried under so many emotions I can't breathe

I don't think I'm ready to be burdened with the Sem 2 workload although oddly enough I'm looking forward (I might even feel a tinge of excitement) to be back to the grind in about 3 days. I feel like the immense load of medically related diagrams/ info I will have to cram into the jelly in my skull in 4 months along with the many co-curicular activities I always find myself appearing at will require so much of my time that I will have none left, to think about my stupid feelings

Also, 8am lectures will be the death of me
Just so we're clear
I do not enjoy 8am lectures

Sometimes I think you care
But other times right I really just wanna slap u & throw u off a cliff
& other times I just wanna keep u in my pocket
cis then you'll be close  & i'll be protected
(& I will know when u try & cheat)

But I don't really have the rights to feel any of this do I
Because we're not really together anymore
Or were we ever
Or are we still

aduh.